Dung, blog is up again, but not open to my friends anymore. (:
If you ever stumbled into this place, I hope you feel happy, very very happy.
This is my world, stareye's world.
<3

what we could have been, 10:35 PM.

i am going to be sec3 next year.
i am going to be sec3 next year!!!!!
I AM GOING TO BE SEC3 NEXT YEAR LEH!
i feel so unprepared and excited.
" we won be safe until his dead,he will be stalking us at night
set to sacrifice our children for his monstrous appetite####"
suddenly, this song came to my mind which i have no idea why.
Reading chinese book is fun especially in a cosy place but its really
very scary when you burst into laughter late at night and couldnt stop. -__-
Thats me. ME!
a crazy women who cant stop thinking about the past.
Not my past , but the past of someone who is dead 300 years ago.
Scary right? i cant believe the influence of some stupid online readers could be soo strong.
i wonder how it is going to be returning back to the time when kings are still present.
the thought of it made me shudder.
how is anyone going to survive in hot warm days without even a fan?
how is anyone going to endure their husband having many wives and waiting day after day for him to come to you? (its a disgrace)
how is anyone going to endure the days without a washing machine and have to wash the clothes of the whole family at the river?
how is anyone going to survive at the thought of being a slave. someone that is going to do all the hard work and get all the kicks from a "master"?
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The books are cheating my poor pure innocent feelings.
GOING back in time , love by the king
maids surrounding you
finally marry the king who listens to you
and scary to all others in the world

THAT CAn never happen!!
its cool even when you think about it but its too unrealistic.
how is a king ever going to love anyone?
they can even kill their own son if they feel their son is threatening his place.
okayokay.. i go watch show le. TIME IS PRECIOUS

what we could have been, 1:29 AM.

yay! holiday is OVER.
so bored~~~~~~~~~!!
don feel like goin anywhere except somewhere. heheh!
YTD went to popular fair ,
see jiu ba dao.
he quite cute or rather act maybe.
actually i like to listen to his talk
but then abit too cold le tht place.
anyway me amd my sis still take a photo with him ne! ^^
haix...*sign non-stop* ITS BORING!
i cant study ne.
now at library tou tou yong computer-ing.
heheh! ><
COM SO LACK!! *__*

what we could have been, 2:21 AM.

oh my . i cant believe i am sooo bored that i can go read a sooo thick book about wu ze tian lei!! OMG!! i am insane! but honestly its nice lei! hhahahaha!! ~>_<~ hahaha!!
anyway personally, i feel she is abit jian lorh.
go with tai zong（太宗）first cannot then run to li zhi (李治) who is the (taizong) de son.
cause the (taizong) super smart lorh. even though he love her he don wan to go to her.
he feel that wu ze tian is looked innocent and cute but inside her is evil and scary.
that is after wu ze tian wan2 kill his beloved horse just because the horse don listen to her.
isnt her scary? looking so weak and feeble but can thought of killing a living thing ----the horse!!
that incident give the king an idea that wu ze tian is those type of ppl who will kill someone if that prson don listen to her command.
actually, pretty true, thats why i say tai zong is clever, she killed the queen and a fei zi VERY CRUELLY!!
frist she order her man to whip them using a thick rope, then after that cut their hands and legs, then put them in a large full of vinegar. ( she say because they love to chi cu (吃醋）ma）omg omg lorh. can you imagine the vinegar mixed with your blood???
anyway after the taizong abandon her for about 12 years, the "old" taizong is goin to die.
before he die, he asked for wu ze tian, he wants to kill her before he die.
he know she will be a big obstruction for his son lizhi.
is not that he knows the hidden relationship between them but he know wu ze tian would try to take over his son de place as a king! (which is true again)
however, tiazong didnt bare to kill her after he see her. wu ze tian indeed is pretty.
so he make her bec0me a nun.
sad to say but his plan of chasing wu ze tian away from the kingdom did not work.
his son li zhi went to fetch her back.
li zhi and wu ze tian has loved each other for the past 12 years 9 the days when taizong abandon her)
even though li zhi is the third son she know he will be the king!! since the first twp sons does not have leadership ability.
after her analyse,she begin to purposely get near to lizhi by asking some "stupid" questions which i bet she knows already.
anyway then she begion to (tou qing) with li zhi lorh.
OKAY STORy end here first. haha. too long le~>__<~ To all ppl, she might seem evil & bad, but deep inside me i think she is clever & has great ability.
during that time woman are considered as low class ppl who should be unseen. ( wear masks? o.0) yet she can be a king and order man to do things for her!! thats really bold isnt it? actually she did meet alot of obstructions but she is able to think of solutions even though some are not so good. but at least she can think of solutions! which i bet no woman can at that time..><>
opps. i gtg go le. *wave* byebye!!

what we could have been, 8:16 PM.

OPPss!!
sorry for what i had written ytd..
hehe! just a let out of feelings lah..
head pain will grow werid de..lol ><
but i am perfectly alright by now le!
heehee! JY for everyone! ^ ^

what we could have been, 4:24 AM.

seriously. i cant ake it le! ><
i had enough all the head pain i am trying to endure.
it really hurts and its killing me.
i nearly broke down today.........
all the unessasary stress is tearing me bit by bit.
feel like knocking the wall.
feel like kicking the chair.
feel like biting everyone i can.
feel like skipping school.
feel like crying out loud.
feel like hammering my body.
feel like doin nothing and just sit there.
feel like dieing...
OMG!! when did i became like that?
its just soo uncomfortable!!!!!!!!!!>>>>
i even skip my detention today!!!!
why???????
beccause nobody even cares when i get to the audi.
and thta is irritating me and annoying me
most imptly its firing up my headache!!
now i am still pain!><
honestly if i can i wan2 end everying!!
all the stress.
all the competiton.
all the worries.
all the burden on me.
all the hope on me.
all the stupid things on me that is making me goin CRAZY!!
*arghhhhHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!* shout out loud!!!

what we could have been, 3:36 AM.

what we could have been, 3:37 AM.